| Happy New Year |
[Jan. 1st, 2008|08:13 am] |
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I didn't wake up in a good frame of mind. Well, honestly, I never do, but the 'heating system' in this house is beyond ridiculous. I'm not quite sure what to do about sleeping hot now. I guess I'm opening the vent in my office and letting my legs freeze so I can sleep cooler. Currently, that seems to be the only sensible option. Meanwhile, Tony's cold in the master.
I already started my third year in Knoxville back November 16. No, I don't feel any better about being here.
Do I have a bad attitude? Yes, obviously, but I also have bad experience and I know a bad fit when I feel it, too.
It's the Stephen Covey analogy where he selects a member of the audience in order to prove a point about adjusting to corporate culture and gives her someone else's glasses and then harangues her to get her to accept them. This particular woman tells him, in front of his audience:
no, I cannot see,
no, it won't get better,
no, I don't need to get a better attitude, I need to get these glasses off.
Covey's trying to get the woman to accept what she cannot--he says in most cases, everyone else has just gone along. That lady is my shero. In front of everyone she stuck to her guns.
I don't want to just go along with Knoxville. I'll do my best to get along, but if I can do anything to shorten my stay here, I will.
Well, why should I live here--or even want to? I feel better elsewhere. The dizzies didn't plague me in either Oklahoma City or Nashville. I have some faint hope that I'll feel decent elsewhere. That's better than looking forward to a life of reeling and nausea.
Looking forward---we do have tickets to five concerts so I have given myself something to look forward to. I'd cheerfully give them away to get out of here, but hey--if I'm here, I'll have all the fun I can:
Emmylou Harris, Patty Griffin, Shawn Colvin and Buddy Miller--January 12
Richard Thompson--January 21
The Indigo Girls--February 10
Gordon Lightfoot--February 11
BB King--March 29
RESOLUTIONS: Yes, I am making them. Whew--so what am I going to do?
1. Do 1000 Amazon Reviews this year. I am currently calling my number 860. There are some reviews from December 31 that have not shown up, but this takes into account the email I will have to write to Customer Service to get them put up, etc. I want to get back to reading books instead of spending so much time on the Mac just idling.
2. Exercise at least 2 hours a week and be mindful of what I eat. Yes, I want to lose weight and feel healthier. No, I am not stupid enough to say I'll lose X pounds, do the impossible. Setting hopefully reasonable and attainable goals, here. Right now, I wear a size 20 pant and I want to be at least two sizes less than that. Weight number, I probably don't want to know. I can tell you I weigh right now more than I ever have and it's depressive and futile eating--foodicide as it were.
3. Get a novel written and hopefully into submission. That's probably "Killer in the Kudzu" formerly "Serial." I'm hoping for more writing achievements than this and I honestly believe that RWU is the place to get there. To that end, I am writing the document to get Barbara's and my work separated and getting her to sign it before "Sweeney Todd" today.
4. Get another 100 werds into Addictionary.org. The activity is fun and I seriously think it's worthwhile. Who knows? I could actually end up with a word in Merriam-Webster. Doubt anyone would credit little old moi, but hey, it's still worth a try.
5. Get the doll mess cleaned up. I didn't pack the dolls up right, the basement has not worked as a doll room, I'm not sure I like the diningroom as a dollroom, etc. This may be the year that many of them are gone. I love my dolls and I have enjoyed the hobby, but this house and the display problems are forcing a decision and it's going to fall towards reducing.
6. Work on mind-body-spirit balance. I'm not sure what that means or entails, I'm opening that one up to the Universe and figuring I'll get some whacky, quacky and hopefully, useful, ideas as well.
What else? I can't think of anything. I have opened the damn 'heat' vent up and I'm already shivering, so I have go get a hot shower and get dressed.
Next on the agenda is the Writing Divorce Paperwork for Barbara.... |
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